this is totally random. just my imagination.
ex: why? why? why? tell me. why is it not me? i love you more than her. we were together once and we can be together forever. please. don't leave me. i need you. she doesn't. she is living happily without you. i can't live well without..boy: stop this. you are getting desperate.ex: im desperate for you and your love. i need it. i need you too. please..just give the two of us one more chance? please?boy: ... no. i know i love her and im confirm that i love her. i want to by her side and be there when she is down. i want her to be happy. forget me. im not good enough for you. now all i want is her to be happy. hope you will be happy too.boy walks away.ex: no..pls...no...*collasped on the floor*that was TOTALLY random. xD
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i got TAGGED. omgomgomg. hahx. lets do this man.
INSTRUCTIONS:1. The tagged victim have to come up with 8 different points of his/her perfect lover.2. Mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.3. Tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.4. If you are tagged the second time, there's no need to do this AGAIN.5. The most impt rule: HAVE FUN DOING IT.MY EIGHTIE MIGHTIES:one decisivetwo brave and strongthree care for mefour not overprotectivefive understand me wellsix able to cheer me upseven i love himeight loves meGENDER:gay a male xD VICTIMS:conniegrace(chow)jasmineliu yingsheryl yancishumingyijieyun jenxD colourful post. xD
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I JUST CUT MY HAIR. AND ITS STILL AS UGLY AS EVER. THE AUNTIE IS NOT AS GOOD AS I TOT!!!
crap. ill be going to school with my fringe clipped up. will have some at the side..the auntie like very pro like that..haiz. dissapointed nia. i cannot trust my mama taste..haiz. next time i go cut..with my friends. hmph. i dont care le...
i think maybe my own hair prob? natural curl..REBOND!! i dont think that auntie knows what is rebond. oh well. wadeva. dont care her le.
last night damn scary. papa work as usual. den mama and korkor went SHOPPING. den leave me all alone. after that come back my bro still make me jealous with all the nice nice clothes. crap. just cuz he teach tuition got $$..den i nv teach. sad lorx..that sec 1 dont want me..x(
anyone looking for a tuition teacher to teach maths or science can come find me. tuition only available for p1-p6 or sec 1. sec 2 if you want oso can. thx! xD
i seriously want $$$$..haiz. i wana SHOP. bleah.
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listing time!!! xD
wishing me well soon.
- xiao zhu
- wanting
- connie
- alana
- alana
- alana
- alana
- alana
- alana
- alana
- yingqi
- kenneth(tan)
- yanjie
- wanting
- jessica
- yumin
- ranon
- maylyn
- leping
- yijie
- yijie
- yijie
- yijie
- yanjie
im always editing that. hahx.
hahx. just added the 'a's to all 'alan's. cuz i just rmb tt he was alana that day. which was...ytd? yeah. i think. oh yeah. msr alana gay ng yong xiang. xD
alot of ppl asked me if im okay. too many to name. xD thanks alot for your share of love. i appreciate it. alot. xD oh yeah. now for the ppl to gan xie..
- yijie(she wei wo dan xin le hen jiu!!!iLOVEyou!!xD)
- sylvia(she bei wo!!!iloveyou too. xD)
- miki(fu me. xD)
- wanyi(fu me too. xD)
- peiwen(fu me three. xD)
- wanting(fu me four. xD)
- and alot others that cared!! xD
it was surprising that a girl and three guys in front. then leave two guys behind. actually i dont even know if they are hanging out all tgt. oh well. random.
today very bright. yijie brighter. xD cuz im HEI. xD
wore slipper today. i think i will recover b4 tues? i hope so. the swelling is still there..but i can walk normally almost without any pain le...
i seriously hope that cat is working tml. iWANTaHAIRCUT. =/
*prays*
aniw. surprised that he cared. xD budden im happy he cared! xD budden he is not my cup of tea. he asked too. wow. im jux..sorta too stun-ned. kkay. let me cool.
kkay.
today. i keep tripping over things..hai alot of ppl dan xin..so sorry people. need to keep a distance from me for quite awhile. sorry for the trouble. thanks for your consideration. xD
im surprised by myself. when i kena kick accidentally that time. i will ku xiao bu de. xD
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i found who really cared..and who are just totally bitchy.
right. maybe i can act as if it hurts. budden right. i can act as if its swelling. i am SO pro at acting that i know how to make look as if its swelling. im SO PRO. well. you damn bitchy asshole. ppl care for me you also need to be jealous. your FACTS are so TRUE. and you stupid lorx. you think you kick the other side of the ankle that is not the wound i will hurt? you are stupid. i know you wana test whether im faking anot den you tried kicking the hurt ankle. you stupid lorx. you kick the wrong side to test. lousy idiot. bitch.hmm..i wasnt really surprised who cared and who dint. i was only surprised when she dint ask me.
jux now cuo my leg. i cried. it hurts.
my heart hurts more than my anklemy voice hai mei you hui lai..x(
headache!!!!
today is the lousiest day of my life. but on the contrary(izzit spelled like that?), its sorta yijie's best day. weird.
ate 3 bananas jux now. random.
ankle still hurts. gona wear slippers to school on friday bah..my ankle now so big..gonna wear the biggest(ugliest) pair.
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I DON'T WANT TO GO FOR ANOTHER INTERVIEW!!! SO SCARY.
hmm..know afew more ppl today. hahx.
i duno what to post. seriously. for so long..finally there is one day i post and i dunno what to post. wow. hahx. crap me.
i seriously think i wont get into the sc. xD? x/? i duno.
got lots of hw today..blahblahblah.
x and y was expected. z was..weird. i din know z will be like tt. oh yeah. b is nice. very nice. i think she is like me. xD she is nice. xD
i hope for one day. that one fine day..
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hmm..i've been thinking about me..its not that i zi lian or what. its..who i really am.
i think..maybe deep in me. somewhere in my mind. i want to be a popular kid. i want attention. i want everyone to listen to me and agrees with whatever i do. i want whatever i want. i want whatever i need. (arrogant/ignornant/proud/wannabe/despo)
or maybe. i want people to recognise me by themselves. i want to do small little actions that creates big impacts. i love to do sweet sweet things and be praised for it. (sheepish/shy)
or maybe. i am a person that is very weak. very very weak. i put up a strong front. not only to make sure i don't get bullied. but also not to make people to worry about me. i was there for everyone else but not me. (weak/lousy/breaks down easily/stupid)
i dunno which one am i..or am i none of them? can someone..tell me? i dunno who/what i am anymore.
im sick of this life that doesnt seem to be mine. im sick of the lies that doesnt seem to be true. im jux sick of everything. you and me.
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damnit. cannot cut hair today..auntie not around. x( muz wait until this weekend. den book again. crap.
having a slight fever. and headache.. still got flu and sorethroat. x(
i got a damn funny dream last night. me and my bro went into another dimension. den its like. cats are sorta like humans like tt. den its like. got to cats like. wana investigate us like tt..den tis like. they like. GOGOGO!!den move move move. den me and my bro stared at them. den one of them roll from the road(den got a stair like tt.) den to e upper level. den
KING KONG KIANG. ouch. tt hurts. e cat said, rubbing his head. e other cat said. you stupid cat! oh cramps!(tts really wad i heard) we are found out. den both of them started running in circles with their hands(front legs) in e air. me and my bro creeped away. i dont bother to rmb e rest cuz i cnt rmb. damn cute lahx. e cats.
wow. my forehead so hot...
dont use comp le bah...bbyes.
iprayforyoutocare
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auntie me. xD
miss no water campaign. xD
hei zhuu. xD
spoink? izzit spelled like tt? hahx. its e pokemon de. its a BLACK PIG. and its CUTE. hahx. but its not me. i want tt pic. i WANT IT. ill go search.
today. nicholas told me to reach there at
6.30. i reached. den met wanting. den duno duno wad happened. someone threw black socks to karyaow and nicholas. den aft tt they RUN and RUN and RUn. met them at e stairs. were wearing their socks and shoes. den nicholas asked. why u here so early? i was like. OO. i told him. its you tell me to come one lorx. then he gave me tt big big smile. oh well. wadeva.
b4 e break is damn nice lahx. cuz i listen. den aft tt i nv..cuz was playing with e lightsticks!!! hahx. budden no connectors. nicholas dun wana give. aniw. i alr got sore throat. i scream some more. im plainly asking for trouble.
den i was saying nice performance to all in band tt i noe lah. den i was like. say hi to xiao mei. den i said nice performance(cuz she wear somthing like e band ppl. and i forget she counsellor). den she say. i nv even perform! i was like. opps. den like. i was walking. den i walk faster.
heng nia...e internet explorer suddenly got prob. nid close down. heng can recover post..kkay dun wana continue le. nth to say le aniw. kkay. goodnitex everyone. xD
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yeah. now very very bright. oh yeah. this morning i tink. i saw this girl. sitting on the bicylce. in front of her mother. den she was rasing up her hand. doing a stop sign. den aft tt e best part come. she snapped her finger. point at one of e vehicles wich was waiting for them to past. den put e stop sign. damn fierce but cute. hahx.
english paper..sure fail. i hope not though. i tink i can still fit for a pass. i believe.
after school went to tmart first. cuz yijie got media. meeting her later. den after meeting her. we went to buy bread and bubble tea. e bread all LOOKS SO NICE. hahx. wanted to buy egg tart. budden nv. oh well. nvm. xD then we went to yijie house. im SOO used to her house tt i know alot of things bout it. damn nice. its like my home. jux tt its only until 5. usually. execptions like today. lay han come. den got some more stuff lahx..we took pics. hope yijie will send to us..i hope.
tml got band..budden i not going..x( haiz..nvm. exams come le. jiayou everyone!!! xD
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i changed my skin!!! i still cnt believe it. my name is under credits!!! thx jess. for letting my name be there. xD
den..yeah. very bright..(cover eyes cover eyes) aahh!! hahx. im weird.
tml got english exam. release early!! xD
budden muz memorise alot of things..try my bestestestestesterbest.
end of post. xD
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yi jie was sick today!!!! i missed her SOO much. hahx. then after skol. cuz we suppose to clear our tables after today. then she got ALOT of stuff. damn jia lat. heng jasmine released at 2. den i managed to find her. den i no nid to bring EVERYTHING to yijie house. hahx. she is okay lahx. jux tt her eyes got something. her contacts have been weird. sorta expected.
after reaching her house. i start to search for FOOD. hahx. i din eat my lunch. i ate. 2 packets of e cereal biscuit. 2 slices of bread with CHOCOLATE CHEESE(i never heard or seen it before). den i drank vitagen. xD
den yijie wanted to rest. so i played game with jiaying. its e...something 7. forget wad. very scary. hahx. den later play tt game hahx. i forget wad name oso. togong?tonkat? duno. hahx.
ohya. we played badminton oso.
den. finally. i reached HOME. xD hahx. someone maybe gonna wear specs to skol tml. lalalax. hahx. kkay. bbyes
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i tink maybe cuz..my life has been too happy? im losing my temper too easily..and i dun like it. i muz resist fa-ing huo. haiz..
now he oso got his own troubles to worry. haiz. he is going down. im feeling sad. he is like..wad was me. i dun wan him like tt. i feel so useless. he is like. totally dissapointed and i can do practically NOTHING.
kay. now he is cheered up. cuz of something i said. hahx. i jux said it from e bottom of my heart. xD
well. still have to wait awhile b4 fan lian-ing. hahx. he asked. i tot he was turning cold..he wasnt. xD he is still as warm as b4. i like tt. hahx.
hey you jiu shi ni~ hahx. im listening to it now. its a nice song.
icntbelievethis!!imfallingforhim!!!maybeoni.
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hmm..today. went out with christabel!! very very very long never see her. miss her SOO much. went to watch eight below. i cried twice. its damn sad lahx. e middle part. den e ending..still got 2 dogs die. its damn sad lahx. budden at least he managed to save e rest. oh. its a damn sweet movie. sad too. go watch.
i hope ill be cutting my hair next sunday. with tt 'ah cat'. my mum calls her tt. i hope she is better than tt auntie tt spoilt my hair last time.
crap. i still haven do my sui xiang. ]:
hmm..waiting. x)
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i finally relinked gina..sorry gina. i took so long. ]:
i miss my piggy puppet. ]:
im DESPO. for love. ]:
unhappy. deprived. moody. ]:
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hmm..i hope she is okay le. i knew..cuz when i cried. wad i wanted e most was a support. well. caring nd concerning will do..but. huggin is e best. its e most comforting. tts one lesson i learnt..oh well. wadeva.
read The O.C. its all bout love..i wana be like marissa. she is troubled nd stuff. but she is luxurious. she jux..so..yeah. u read e book u will noe. ryan..i wana be like him too. its his attitude. den seth..i tink tts me in reality. e ultimate geek. summer..she is a total failure. doesnt cherish. actually anna is good too..jux an extra...
hmm..if i flirt..den how bout u? try nd tink u from my angle. den u will feel very disgusted nd want to commit suicide. hahx. aniw. i din do much with them wad. better den u all. once they wana leave. no matter to find who. u all will shout traitor. of cuz like. dun wana be labelled as 'traitor'. den of cuz like. dun dare to leave. fun but sucky. wans a break oso cnt.
nd im so happy. they found them bitchy. its not their attitude tt are bitchy to me. i mean. they ARE bitches. hmm..im turning vulgar again. ]:
im despo. she IS correct. im despo. i wan to feel. i wana feel love. yeah. im despo for love. i tink tts a good thing. at least for me. at least im not despo for stupid stuff like popularity or guys. [:
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hahx. my voice is okay still lorx. i tot it wld go ki siao. hahx. wasnt tt high today. budden still high. hahx. nd..duno wad to say le..i..duno lah..
alot of things happened today. not wanting it to destroy my whole row of good memos. i decided to write bout dis. not. not tt happy.
he saw me!! nd i dun c him. hahx. oh well. wadeva. [:
she cnt believe tt she almost like him b4. hahx. random.
nd..i tink im bein bad le..im bein possessive.
ndnd. i do not owe
ALAN any $$. [:
there there. its damn big horx.
[:
im possessive. nd its BAD. im gona do something bout it. somthing..
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im up late today. ]: i wana slp..budden. jux a short post b4 goin to orh orh...
hmm..went to support e volleyball girls!!! screaming was a damn damn MUST for me. [: den now i got sore throat. budden. im still HAPPY!! [[: they won!!! den i was like. in front of miss teo. yeah we won!!*swing my arms* yeah we won!! den its like. she look with *tt kinda look. den aft tt like. duno me like tt. hahx. nvm. [:
he zhu dong le!! no longer e shy shy kor of mine. :P he waved. hahx. this time is he start de. den i reply. at least not like him. i halo him den he dao me. ]: i always kena jek de lorx. tts sad. but. IM STILL HAPPY~~ lalalax~ nd nd. er. oh yeah. opps. i forget. er..orh. i wana wish every sec 3 good luck!! [: for their test and blah blah blah..cuz i noe they very very stressed. [:
i wanted to cut my hair!!! i was like askin my mama. den she said. bu yao jian le!! liu chang! zhe yang kan qi lai hen mei you jing shen!!! den i was givin her e buay song face. den she complained to my bro. ta xian zai zhe ge fa xing arh......blah blah blah.
tml got he practical. hmm. good luck to me. [: nd to everyone too! [:
bbyes~
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thx..im feeling. much much better. i dun care if u tink i shit or wad le...cuz. its jux one person. though may affect ALOT. but. its good enough to have 1 or 2 good buddies. [: tts wad emily told me. i rmb tt in my heart. [:
eeee. now my papa watching the maid. its like. i nv watch. budden e sound is like. damn scary. i wonder how he tahan. or how anyone tahan. e music nd e pictures. if its plainly e music or e pictures. its so much not scarier. [:
i miss....something. something is missing. but i duno wad tt is. i duno. seriously. nvm. ill suan qi zi ran. den ill find wad i really want.
i hate u. u hate me. oh well. tt was random. [:
im glad i ended all dis with a smiley. [[:
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yeah. im despo. im despo alright. im despo for love. not for boys nor popularity. i changed nd she is blind. im angry nd sad. i duno wads wrong..wad did i do? i did but i changed..its always not enough eh? my stupid bad-puls-act cute character is nv erased from ur minds hur? oh well. FINE. wadeva i do is not enuf. wadeva i have done is not enuf. wadeva i will do wil NEVER be enuf too. i noe it i noe it. bahh. dis is shit.
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hmm..im still swing bahx. aniw. kena mosquito bites!! so itchy..bought 4 ppl their presents today. sharing with other 3 ppl. [: nd i bought my hair stuff..nd FINALLY!!! mama bought me my clean nd clear!! [[: my face has been like so oily.
hmm..now i saving for my contacts. wt promised me to buy me a skirt! hhax. nd i noe wad to buy her for her bday le..heeheehee.. hahx. we played so much at toy`rs. okay. i got bad memo. hahax. its damn cute dere. e lion missed wt nd me!! not alana. hahx. im jux high lah.
i was down ytd. at e competition. not cuz i got 4th lahx. jux cuz..i duno. mood swing. hahx. i won until like tt mama buy ice cream for me!! hahx. (usually i buy for myself nd she duno) kkay..
im still saving..bahh. [:
im weird. im high. i duno. [:
bbyes.
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haiz..u din get it. oh..might as well. i shld have known..u are not tt kinda person..haiz. i tot too much..again. im despo? i duno..i tink..i jux..nid. xxxx. haiz..
i dun trust u anymore. excuses u gave me everytime. i tink im damn stupid to trust u. ur yu qi was totally like. y e hell muz u tell me ur stuff. u wana crap. den quick la. bitch. tt kinda tone. haiz..
everyone is turning their backs on me..haiz. now i dun wana look on e bright side nd i duno y. i noe iv got yijie. i duno y...haiz.
come on ppl. this is ur chance. show ur ugliest side. come on. i noe u ppl have been having very itchy hands. come one. bring on ur insults. let me have a big good cry. i hate to say this.
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i saw tt look on ur face. bahh. i dun tink i can really trust u anymore.
im drifting away from u..of all e ppl i expected. haiz..
i dreamt...of x. y. nd me nd my bro. this is jux for u. u can choose not to read. hmm..i tink in my dream..i stead with x. y is x's younger bro. my bro in e dream is x nd y elder bro. not my bro. their bedroom is a newer version of my house bedroom. kkay. if u duno my house bedroom arrangement. it has a double-deckered bed. den stick to a queen size bed. den stick to a single de. lets start.
it was like..x called me. in e posh car. he got..chaffeur. nd he LIVES NEAR ME. den its like..he was goin into tt twisting-roads-area. den. he called me. i jux got down from a cab. at my hse there. den his call came.
"eh..i see you. wana come my house? i missed you..come la..i ask my chaffeur to go pick u up.."
"okays. i wait for u."
den he came to pick me...we sat very very close tgt..hand touch hand..but nv hold. den. we reached his house.
his house is like WOW. e first person i saw was y. he was like. tt kinda businessman. he upstairs mah. den he was like holding a glass of wine in his hand.
"eh. i got party. u go bedroom first can..?"
"okay."
den i follow him to third floor... his eldest bro is slping on e upper bed of e double deckered bed. x lie on e queen size bed. i lied beside him. very very closely. took off my specs. den i. zhu dong held his hand. den he STARED at me.
"i jux hope ur bro dun c dis."
den i look up. opps. his bro opened his eyes. den i was like. "shit." den my dad woke me up. ]: i want it to continue..haiz.
haiz..im down. nd i duno y. im hiding. i duno wads e prob. i jux hope everything is jux fine..i tink im jux having mood swing. i hope. i hope.
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TEDDY BEAR WON!!! hahx.
end of post. [[: im jux weird today. to show im not really tt weird. ill end e post here. [:
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YIIPIE!!! hahx. my comp finally fixed. it got prob cuz of some stupid firewall setting. budden i tried to switch off e firewall nd c c..budden doesnt work leh..]: duno la. dun care le. my bro do everything. [:
jux had a nightmare. tts y wake up so early. i dreamt of alot of ppl. it was e end of e world. cuz some old jiao lian cursed it. den it was e damn foto that shock me up. i heard frm my dad tt nightmares nd dreams can only be rmb when e person slp too much. den nightmares are supposed to jolt them awake. hmmm....maybe i really slp too much le.. :p
ma bday comin..still duno wad to buy for her.
aniw..ytd went to watch ice age 2!! its damn cute. its oni tt i din enjoy it. cuz i wanted to go toliet SO badly. hahx. drank too much. hahx. im weird. i noe. [[: budden no matter wad. its a damn cute show!! muz go watch. my friend jux dun wana admit tt its cute. cuz at e beginning i said its cute. den she say im childish. den later turn out to be damn cute!! den she say it was damn retarded. esp e..squrriel? izzit a squrriel aniw? duno. its tt one tt saved everyone with his love for his nut. hahx. budden tt one is CUTE. not retarded. hahx. [:
hmm..i tink i only kena deprived of e comp den down bah..i hope so. [:
bbyes everyone! [[:
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