hey..im finally here..nd..i dun really feel that good. yeah. thx for ur whispers nd diaos. i love them. bahh.
even u are havin that look. i hope its not for me. even if it is. its not intentionally. im down enough. bleh.
last few days cldnt go online!!! haiz. miss my internet. miss e games. the most i missed is tokin with my friends!!! not sure whether can use my friend hse comp to go online anot. cuz last time her mum din allow. lets c kkay? [:
lost my competitions le. wun be goin for e top 8. wadeva.
now..im so lousy tt no one wana play with me. haiz..
i duno..maybe im down cuz iv not been tokin with them? nd bai tuo. e them are not in my klas. hmm..tokin bout e other them. i went out with them today den..its oni for like 5 mins? yeah. den..ill prefer much with who i m with now. [[: im glad i found them.
no one cares. no one bothers. no one concerns. no one asked. no one knows.
everyone pretends. everyone ignores. everyone turn their faces away. when they see its me.
tt wasnt random. tts bad. my post for duno duno how long ends here. bbyes.
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Hi :D
Jessica here.
Youming can't blog, and can't go online also. Due to some probs with her comp. So she apologises to all her zhong shi du zhe ):
Yep, taking off now.
<3
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yo ppl! i change my skin. [: cya. [[:
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so long nv blog. so paiseh ppl!!!! muahaha!!! sorry. bahahah!! [:
lets c..
on wednesday..i got..abit sick..yeah. headache. took a nap. den it got worse actually. sorta. yeah. den aft tt still nv eat panadol. den still duno do wad do wad..den aft tt den still nv eat panadol. den finally e next morning my mama force me eat. hahx.
den got competition. totally off form. den tt idiot fcuker go scold me..till something stupid happen. tt bastard say im e lousiest on e team. im lousier den anyone on e team actually. den i was like. something happen. den today i was tinkin. if i really tt lousy. dun let me be on dis team la! im fine with it. i was tinkin of quitin tt..haiz. nvm. ill be abit down..but im still SIAO. bahahax.
den friday..TODAY. hmm..went trg. damn stupid today. not off form but HIGH. hahx. den aft trg even more stupid. nd guess hu i saw! hahx. nick was with pu yuan(izzit spl like tt?). den saw e whole gang of e guys. its damn weird den its like. me nd yan ci initially wanted to go. den its like. ying qi nd sylvia come to catch us!!! den we run run run. den kena caught at e gate. den saw e guys lor. den jiu shi. omgomgomg. i wana leave!!! den was tokin to kenneth. eh! jux now saw puyuan nd nick tgt leh! den damn stupid. e whole gang got dis kinda of eyes sayin. wth. cuz e 4 of us were like. laughin nd pantin at e same time. den damn hilarious. LOL. den aft tt i kena dragged by ying qi nd sylvia to e pasamalam. or howeva u spl tt. den yan ci went. hahx. den aft tt..aiya. forget le. hahx. i noe tt it was fun.
i oso rmb!! it was like. sylvia wan chocolate. den ying qi say. if u say to a guy i love u. den will give u chocolate. den sylvia tell ying qi. boy! i love u. give me chocolate!! hahx. damn stupid. :P
kkay. tml is tml. [[: stupid logic said by a siao ding dong. wich is me!!! [[:
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hmm..im prepared to get a yellow form tml. i bet some ppl will be damn happy. bahh. wadeva.
thurs got competition again..haiz. sure lose. budden ill nu li!! hahx. nd i hate tt stupid cher. nd i hate tt stupid cher too. they sux. even mr pinky oso dun care y u care. idiot la...haix.
aniw. i was damn high at table tennis competition. hahx. cuz got ppl high with me den i high mah. if not ppl not high den i high will be like i neglecting their feelings like tt. [[:
hmm..slp on e way bck...hear music some more. damn shiok~ ahhx. hahx. slpt. woke. slpt. woke. slpt. woke. went down e bus. damn tired. hahx.
nd..something pleasant happened today~ nmaa~ nmaa~~ hahx. i ill oni tell 2 ppl. [: i told one. so still left 2. hahx. i wana tell them~ cuz oni they wun tink i act la. now im high~
[[: nmaa~
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WAH. now i accused of acting nice. bahh. wadeva. [: im positive nowadays so..yeah. nd..i tink i goin down again..haiz. i hope not so soon
competition tml!!! omgomgomg. den i was like. still blur-red bout wich shirt to wear. den okay. confirm. wear black. [: good luck to everybody. [:
nmaa~
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i cld scream. i almost screamed. in e end i jux sang damn loudly to make sure i dun scream. [: budden i noe its impossible. budden..yeah.
u two arh..dun quarel le la..quit quarelin..i very bak cek u noe. aiya..dun like dis le la. kay?aiya. one day we have a conver tgt can? den u all thrash things out. kkay?
today i damn blur lor..hahx. wake up in e morning den was like. everything was in a mess. my alarm clock spoil. >.<" aniw. went wrong place...>.<" all was in a mess. bleh.
den come back den bored nd sian. at first someone say wana play tt. den aft tt say bowlin. den say pool. oh well. nth happened though. [:
bleh. i hate u. bytch. bytch. bytch. kay. im not tokin bout u, pissed off. im referin to myself. cuz i too high den will become evil. i hate bein evil. hahx. [[:
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YEAH!! SHE NOT DEPRESSED LE!! SHE DUN WANA DIE LE!! HAHX. IM HIGH~
ytd nd today i am weird+happy+weird+happy+weird+happy+weird+happy= very weird nd very happy! hahx.
now im not havin my ABNORMAL MENOPAUSE. :P
research on geog last night...damn sianz..haix. hope to finish it soon. got e storyline nd everything..
i tink i goin for e paintin le..duno how many ppl wld be there..bbyes. [:
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omg. i touch someone's hand. shant elaborate. :P its one of my memories tt i dun tink ill rmb. hahx.
ND IM HAVIN MY MENOPAUSE. hahx. random.
i wan to smile durin my matches..if not i tink too much. den will play even more lousy. bu juen wo xiao. i wan to xiao..haiz. durin my first nd sec match i damn noisy lor. hahax budden third match i quiet le. den i nv smile. very serious lor. not fun. ]:
hmm...i dun get it. y she like tt..haiz. hope she gets better..
hmm..maybe i noe hu i like? duno. tt one arh..i dun tink is real de. oh well. wadeva.
hmm...hope she dun so depressed la..haiz. dun wan her die.
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phew. my mum is okay..[[:
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omg..i jux hate dis..every meal ill c him complainin nd shoutin at my mum. talkin bout how bad his customers are..its not my mum fault wad! something tt can make my mum cry is not something good...mummy can ren very good one..until now. she din cry or anything..nd today she cried. she cnt bear with it le lor..i hope she can hold on longer..hold till my dad realises wad he doin is wrong..dun..divorce..jux dun..i noe she will hold on for our sakes..but i duno..how long she can withstand all dis..haiz..my dad sux.
if u ppl wana be SO despo to make me upset. u can talk bout dis. i can slap u. i dun care if u complain to cher or anything. ill slap u. i mean it. it means got gang come aft me oso i dun care.
walau. she good. curse my mum die. she die la. go nd eat shit. say c my mum e spirit. budden cnt touch. she go die la. curse my mum. ur mum die nd too much of a da ji izzit? bitch.
talk to tt person to 2.15 dis mornin..went to slp..nd wake up at 1..tt person is FUN. budden tt doesnt cheer me up..haiz..
y cnt my dad have a better job..one job wun have complains nd will make his life easier..haix..
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hmm..im half high nd i duno y. [: duno duno duno~
peaccey~
talkin to someone now. dun wana say hu. if not say i do something* something* again. bleah.
nvm. im still half high~
I LOVE ONE PIECE! its damn nice. aiya. watch skypiea halfway den skip to water 7. den now skip back to skypiea. haven finish. >.<" den water 7 bro friend burn nv continue de..>.<" den now everything bits nd pieces. ]: oh well. its still funi. luffy so damn hilarious. *imitated sangi* *take out cigrette* this is e ordeal of..love. *laughters frm usopp nd chopper + my bro nd me* *imitated zoro* *pushes up hair* izzit morning alr? *bubble out of his nose* *laughters frm e same ppl* maybe u dun get it budden for me nd my bro its classical jokes. [:
hmm..my fringe is gettin straighter. budden i noe la. connie's straighter la kay! lols.
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i jux dun wana tok bout ANYTHING. iv been ACCUSED OF ALOT OF THINGS. OH WELL.
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today has been a long day~
early in e morning..went for camp...den noe of jeremy nd joel aka sexy chio bu nd macho shuai ge. [[: they so fun~ budden damn sad. they cnt give no nor anything like tt..haiz..]: ill miss them when they go~
i was damn high today lorh. until i become tired. which is slowly slowly de...okay...we played..e shoe shoe game nd blow wind blow. wanted to play double whacko. budden sadly times up. den cnt play. ]:
went to pasir ris park aft tt. got 5 stations. we only played 3. got one is we went. nd its shuai ge's station..budden e siren..aiyo. den cnt play. its e ppl run here run there de..hm..went for e blindfold thingy. kena sabo-ed. den..took 2 balls. one was taken away cuz..i touched a mine? something like tt. den..oso got e fold fold thing. tt one damn tough. nd..sorry..i shouldnt have complained tt much..>.<" we oso played e do a star shape thing. alan leading. den he damn funi lor. he went shh! sshhh! shh!shh!shh! sssshhhh!!! lols. we finish earlier..den we played played primary sch games..reminds me of old times..so young nd innocent..innocent..haiz.
den dismissed at skol.
haiz..i dun get it. wad does she wants frm me? i dun get anything that u all doing can. upper sec(according to some information from various sources) tink u act lian act chio act cute. jux plainly act. den u r dere sayin me. act cute only. copy u oni. wadeva. when we on our way to table tennis competition or back we already like tt liaoz lor. u wan to be 'cool' 'hip' 'in'. only in their eyes like tt. got other ppl tinkin e same..they dun like being treated like tt. they are sorta leaving u all...sorta oni. nd PLS. dun tink i trying to drag them to my side or anything like tt. i jux happy enough to have yi jie with me. how i hope..jux one day..u wld realise..everything..nd..its not me again..
Y DUN U JUX OPEN UR EYES. oh well...spoilt my mood. hope ill be high tml morning! [[:
duno y..nowadays brain inside got alot of hexic formations..when close my eyes..i c hexic formations. now im totally CRAZY bout them. LOL.
she wants peace. but does e other she?
i go slp le..gdnitez. [:
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hmm..a short post b4 i go slp..yawn~ [[:
today arh..nth much happened. at table tennis..i tink tt person drank honey. [: nd i realise one mistake. i twist my leg too much!! i jux nid to yi de zhong xing frm my right foot to left nd back again..no wonder my zhong xing so difficult to go back to right...okays. im gona change. i MUZ change.
nd..we are still havin peace. [:
hmm..played hexic. my bro help me beat e original score. nd become first!! as in. among my friends. i was second..he got 140000++. my original highest score was 120000++. thx! [:
mosquito bites..eeww. itchy~ scratch~ itchy~ force myself not to scratch~ [[:
hmm..my bro ask me y i suddenly so high. i say. how u noe? den he say. at first my msn nicks all very depressing de..den now got 'the world is a great place'. so positive rites? lols. i duno y im jux so happy nowadays..maybe i noe. :P
have i fallen for him..? i hope not..or i hope yes? duno. [:
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lols. eee. crap. jux now counted e no of [: in my ytd post. its 13 i tink..aiya. go open door den forget le.
made peace. [: hope its last forever. [:
hmm..im HIGH. IM SO HIGH TT I CAN TOUCH E SKY.
kkays. i stop highing le. i go play hexic while wanting have her lunch. [[:
byebye. [[:
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hmm..ytd nd de day b4 ytd din post. lets tok bout it den..
on thurs..we thrashed out everything. or i shld say. iron out. okays. im bored~ hmm..i got high!!![[: e highness followed to e following day~ [: budden their very very loud loud conversations made me go down to down..haiz. ill try nd stay down. nd not go down-down zone. [: for jux e 2 of u. [:
i jux cant believe it..blaming others for ur loud voices. shld jux..like. talk softer if u dun wan me to hear. dun think tt other ppl are as untrustworthy as u. they dun say..maybe...they jux wana be neutral. i wan to be neutral too. iv hoped to be neutral. bud..shi ni men bi wo de! lols. [:
i cnt believe..i can make a jk out of tt. [:
hmm..ytd..almost kena zai. we had a very fun time. [: esp xiao zhu..she had a very fun time..killing me. [: aiyo..nvm. i will to sarcrifice for e camera sake. [: mei mei!! e video very nice right? lols. i got a sun nu. [[: shirleen~ den my sun nu should call ah ma zhu..grand-ah ma zhu? duno. [:
c most of u on monday~ [: nmaa~
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hmm..today. heard alot of stuff. stuff i dun tink i shld say.
den..i tink..ill really maybe die at in e same style as those 2 jc ppl..since can die. hmm..nvm.
nd..to some one who was once my zhi ji. u are no longer neutral. u are goin towards their side. i trusted u. i believed u. i confided in u. nd in e end. she was right. u are evil. anyway. ur secrets are safe with me. u wana tell others can..i dun care. ill jux do wad i suppose to do. well..dun say i accuse u okay.
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hmm..nvm. im used to bein misunderstood. at least u were dere for me. now uv joined them. ill jux kip everything to myself..den sooner or later..ill be like e two examples..frm jcs..its jux sooner or later. get e full story b4 sayin what u tink? ya. hmm..u got ur version. nv wanted to listen to mine. if not u/i will be wrong? either way. duno.
i was quite..shocked when u come. budden im happy. i duno wad was happening..budden. wadeva. ill rather live in my own world..imagine everything is jux so great and fine..kong qi tuo mo de xing xian~ shi jie duo me de mei hao~ breathe in~ breathe out~
tml..goin for..treasure hunt? i tink. not very sure. den sec 3 go..johor? if im not wrong..den sec 4 duno duno duno..den sec 1..got something tt is borin on i tink...i tink go do cip or something..not very sure..forget le.
today..kena by my mum. she kept naggin bout my chinese. cuz got alot of words duno den ask her. den she buay song. den blah blah blah.
understand b4 seekin to be understood.
i go le..[:
WAIT. i got 100000++ for my hexic!![:
okay. really go le. [:
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haiz..yeah..throw me tt look..it IS my fault..haiz..
she is goin negative!! nonono. duno y now i damn positively negative. den she negatively negative. haiz..ill tok her round..i hope..i can..do it..
today..aft skol. stay bck. do apex. lols. its damn funi de lor. retarded!! lols. den..i principal. ahem* ahem* duno wad to say actually..ill try ritin e speech.
nvm e 5 cents. i give u suan le. c i so good.
i go rite speechy...
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haiz..today really my fault lor..shldnt have told cha cha cha. well..wadeva..at least..dey din really blame me..thx. haiz..ohya. all 2r7 ppl. pls stay bck aft life sci tml. our apex..
nd i cnt cut my damn fringe!!haiz. den i ask sylvia..she adviced me not to cut my fringe myself. cuz i at first wanted to cut myself..since e auntie not free..den she will bring me to her area dere to cut..duno wad roots..
CONNIE. I SAW U TODAY. MONDAY. [: 5 CENTS 5 CENTS. [: 5cents oni..
today..it was okay. yeah..okay...
heard someone frm sum jc jumped down e buildin..i duno if can say here. so if u wana noe. ask me. haiz..duno y. maybe ill end up like him one day..
wanted to break down..din.
i seriously duno hu e hell i like lor..haiz..
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today..went tt trg. nth much happen..LOST TO SOME ONE TT I NOT SUPPOSE TO LOSE TO. oh well. ill not let him have a next time. [[:
i kena asked a maths qns. its damn TOUGH. im so gona ask cchhheeeee. [[:
today..much feelins. duno how to pen down. wadeva.
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today. went out with slppy piggy nd ah ma piggy nd small piggy nd big piggy went to buy ying qi her present!![: at first we wanted to buy shoes. den aft tt c very plain..we all dun really like..den ying qi went around. lookin for a more suitable present. at last! we found a nice green shirt. [: she so fortunate. [:
nd. on e way. dey were givin out some filers. den its like. very special. cuz e pic is is $5. budden got specimen. its damn funi. we wanted some more. den go one time. den aft tt. me nd da zhu go another round. den its like. we stood beside e guy. den he kept askin frm him. LOL. nvm if u cnt get y its so funi. its jux so
hilarous. LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL. [[:
watched sky high. i regreted not watchin it in e cinemas. ]: haiz..hus my will? i wana be laylea. or izzit spl like tt? duno. haiz..e show damn nice..so regret not watchin at cinemas...haiz..
nd..i tink i cuttin my fringe tml? hope dis auntie not as bad as e other..pray*
nd my comp chair e thing spoil. i doubt u will understand. at first. dey have dis plastic thing to withstand e pressure when we lean back. den inside got a screw. den now only left e screw. cuz e pressure too much for e plastic thing. den it broke. all e pressure now on e screw. im tryin very hard not to lean back. i hope it wun spoil tt easily now..
tml..got tt prac. i hope ill continue to improve..or i shld say. regain my skills...haiz..i duno i regain how much le. gona ask jiao lian one day. nd..connie!! ill beat u!!3-1. tts my target. best would be thrash. budden..i dun tink i cn yet? yeaps..
ying qi. u can finally read le. [:
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as promised. ill rite a super super long post. jux for someone hu walked me home today to read. [:
watchin smallville now. i din noe its back. oh~ nvm. ill watch it nxt time.
our klas de apex nd klas paintin all messed up le. ]: apex..none of dem. apart frm jessica nd lp. noes how to dance. nd dey oni noe e dance of e chorus part. >.<" paintin..i duno. dey dun wana stay bck nd do bah. apex..ill teach sumone on mon..den she will teach e rest on tues. i hope dis works.
took pics with ginny nd wanting!!! [: den i went for table tennis. ginny nd wanting wait for their cca to start. den later when i playin. i saw ginny nd wanting!! lols. always c them. [: dey two so positive lor. not like me. budden ill try nd become positive. meditate~meditate~ lame.
someone say tt she tink her bro gona break up with his stead. hmm..tot he loves her alot? aiya. now den c her bad points arh? or. u stop lovin her le? well. none of my business.
den..he..i tink he was waitin for me? budden i ended up stayin bck so late..as compared to 5 la..okays..budden i tink i sorta scared of u. zen me ban???!!! duno. let e things go its ways bah.. so called shuen qi zi ran.
i scared..durin e time bein..i found out tt i dun like u. fell for someone else. i really very scared..haiz..
thx..yi jie..for always being dere for me..no matter wad. [:
den today table tennis..THANK YOU LOTS OF PPL!!!! ESP YING QI ND YUN JEN ND JIA YUAN!! ESP ESP ESP YING QI!! i shld be e one doin..budden as u ppl noe. my art sux. i had to depend on u. wad i cld help was jux to clean up. nd collect infor. really. ty ty ty ty ty. i owe u ppl one. [:
dis is super long for me. u leh?
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lets c. today..ytd..haiz. happen alot. im so messed up now. dun bother to care. dun bother to noe. dun bother to do anything. OMG.SUMONE WANA HACK MY COMP AGAIN. ITS E 14TH TIME I TINK. WTH. izzit sum virus?
bout 10++ hrs later sumthing gona happen. something. i hope i will have e courage.
haiz..nvm. nd nd. im gettin down. bud not tt down. hope i wun get downer. jux hope so. if not ill go around suspectin everyone hates me. haiz..
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