Remember the days(:

Friday, January 27, 2006
-4:30 PM-

wads mai reason for livin..? i duno. i rili duno..den y dun i jux end it all? cuz i dun hab e courage tu take up e knife tu slice mai wrist. if i die. i tink more peeps will be hapi den sad. dey may seem tt dey lyk mie. bud deep inside its a whole lot of wishin mie tu die. i noe it. i cn feel it de. sincere. ya. im sincere. bud wad i do unto others. others din do unto mie. i duno y. i treat dem e wae tt i hope tt dey treat mie. or m i tuu bossy or sumtyn nd i nb realise? i tink maybe its mai fault..it was mai fault las tym. dis tym..peeps assured mie tt its nt mai prob. bud..i dun feel gd. maybe i jux sark. it shld be mai fault. almost eberione ish tinkin im a thorn in deir flesh. i feel sho..lousy. maybe i shld drink poison den slice mai wrist nd den mai neck. den i jump dwn buildin. it wld be a hapi endin...wldnt it?

todae..i had mai mood swing. jie sae tt i lyk tt beri scary. maybe. i duno. budden i jux feel..depressed..i felt dissapointed..bud i duno y. i hapi. at most oni a moment. den tt laughter dissappears. aniw. x-true love saed hi. i din noe he wil do tt de lor. i tot he wld find mie nerd.

i simply hate maiself. i suggest u peeps hate mie tuu. go search deep intu ur heart nd u wld find tt its e zone labelled 'you ming sarks' zone.haiz...im sick. bud nt lovesick..or pervertically sick..its jux..unwell..

well. todae at e carnival mai flowers r sold at $0.50!! omg. e guys sho tupid. its suppose tu be 1.20. dey SARK. nd den oni e las flower was sold for 1.20. aniw. if u wan flower arh. ask mie make lor. budden muz pay 1.20. tell mie e color etc. den i help u do. got sumone bought 3!!! omg. wadeva. aniw. mie nd lp chen ji tok tu shuai ge. tell dem donate. im lame. i noe. i sark..

y muz boys alwaes be boys? cnt dey bcum more matured nd sensitive? cn dey dun be sho insensitive nd inconsiderate? maybe nt all boys r lyk tt..bud. mostly. ya.

ill try nd find tt courage deep in mai heart..tu do sumtyn u peeps will love. die.

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