Remember the days(:

Saturday, January 07, 2006
-12:38 PM-

first. ya. i noe tt ppl r startin tu dislyk mie. or more correctly. hate mie. cuz iv been an idiot. nd i noe it. i changed b4. for fwens sake. sum ppl dun hab tu change nd gain eberione's trust. i dun get it. i dun get it at all. i dun wish tu change animore. i noe iv been beri lame. as in lame until cnt lame animore. its cuz i got nth tu sae. den i stay quiet. den u ppl find mie quiet. start tu ask mie tu speak. nd im was in totally no mood tu speak. sho when i stay quiet. allow mie tu continue. i dun wana be hated. for bein lame. im a sarker at jks. get it?

dose ppl noe. i lyked sumone b4. den it was ova. i dun trust love animore. i dun ebn tink dere ish love in dis world animore. den dere cum another guy. rejected him twice. den i read destiny's cries nd harry potter(e ginny part). den i wanted tu go bck for him. den his feelins for mie were fadin. den i was lyk. nbm. den dere cum mai lameness. i wanted tu cover up. u ppl nb noe. no one understands mie. rili understands mie...nw i blief in love. bud it hurts. its jux...hurtful. nth seems tu work tu heal maiself. if u ppl try tu cheer mie up. yes. i will laugh. i will smile. bud its for tt moment. nd tt moment oni. i rili duno wad will heal mie..i seriously duno..

im oso started tu dislyk e peeps ard mie. sumtyns dey will discover mie. den ask y i sho quiet. of cuz i saed nth..nd dey jux left mie lyk tt. wich ish gd. cuz i dun rili wana confide in dem. dey will forget mie. jux left mie alone. nbm. u peeps duno e situation im in. u peeps oni noe mai skin. bud u peeps tot u noe mie tu e bone. sho far no one has reached mai bone. no one. i jux cnt find tt true fwen. or maybe boyfwen. nd mai fam ish a no no.

i found e nid tu cry..cry out loud. lyk wad i did las yr. cry lyk shit. cry lyk dere ish no tml. i almost did jux nw. bud i was at hm. sho i cldnt do it. ill jux find a dae where by. im all alone in e klasrm..nd cry. i hope no more peeps will cum up suddenly. no more...

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