well..im sick. gt sorethroat. sore neck. head ache. flu. bad dae. still went out. wanted tu watch i nt tupid 2. ml din cum. ) = budden in e end we oso din manage tu watch. we(mie. lp. sylvia) hanged out for a while. saw sum irritatin kids. den we sent sylvia off. den mie nd lp went tu sunplaza park. den aft tt went tu library. i borrowed tuu bks. end of story? nope. its jux tt mai bld bro here. cnt sae foul words. ill blog it nxt tym. or if u wana ask mie tell u face tu face oso cn. e kids were sho nice.
i noe hu iv fallen for le. dun ask mie hu. cuz i wun tell de. cuz nt confirm. okies. mai bld bro gone le. i cn start tokin bout e nice kidos.
mie sylvia nd lp went tu e 5th lvl of tmall. e outside tyn. den its lyk. we saw sum disrespectful kids. i rili wonder ish deir parents lyk tt ant. we din de zui dem or anityn lor. dere r 3 idiotic kids. eldest ish a ger. den e other 2 were boys. den 2nd eldest. he LOVES screamin. its lyk. we jux wanted tu help him lyk. spin. den he AAAHHH. screamed. damn gl lor. den its lyk. lp saed it out. den e sis was lyk sayin. dun tink i nt chinese. i oso chinese lor. den its lyk. lp nd sylvia buay song le. budden i jux kept mai cool. den after tt we went tu another facility. den e bro cum nd AAAHHH. screamed again. den its lyk. we gib in tu dem lyk shit liao lor. den we went sit at e slide dere. den i blief it ish purposely de lor..dey wanted tu play e slide..i rang dem. budden cn sense tt lp damn buay song. den after tt we went tu sit at sum other place. dey oso cum nd irritate us. tt damn screamy bastard. hit mai private part. e bottom one. TWICE. den i was lyk..tellin maiself..nbm de..it will be ova soon...den after tt tt damn idiot cum nd BITE mie. well. i ren. den he went tu bite sylvia. sylvia damn funi lor. tu kip tt idiot awae. she pull his hair. pull his ears. damn funi lor. suan shi help mie revenge le. den its lyk. i damn funi lor. i went up e e maid of dis 3 weirdos nd ask. cn i slap him?(pointin tu tt screamy bastard.) den e maid was sho damn protective. y slap him? he ish jux a kid. he sho small. den i was lyk sayin. HE BIT MIE. as in bite de bit(cuz bit sounds lyk beat). den its lyk. she sae. duno duno wad name. sae sori. den e bytch was sayin. he nb rili bite. he oni bite e shirt. no. e pants. den its lyk. he bit mai skin + rou. budden well. i wanted tu shout sumtyn rili vulgar. i wanted tu sae. u damn bloody fuckin cou chi bai. budden. of cuz i din. well. i feel sho great after bloggin dis. =D
puddin ish still missin..):
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well. poor cny. oni gt tuu ang pow...):
saw lots of shuai ges. gt one ish damn cool one. though he ish quite short. haiz..y he sho cool de...
at first went tu si shu hse. omg he bcum damn skinny. budden. its jux a short while. den we went tu 3 temples. pray..pray..(: den after tt went tu shu po hse. where i gt mai sec ang pow..
hmm..for sum reason i was tinkin of sumone..special. wun elaborate. (;
oni lyk tt bah...
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k la..ytd tt post shld be cuz of mai mood swing bah..tt proves tt mai mood swing ish DANGEROUS. nd nth cn cheer mie up. tinkin of e positive side jux makes mie hab a headache. oh well. its ova. finally.
nd tt part bout fwens...i still feel e same. wib or wibout e mood swing. dun try tu reassure mie or anityn. cuz wad i xperienced ish tt. no matter hw much/sincere u assure mie. u will go bck tu wad u were. im used tu dis.
den..well... u damn gd lor. ask mie go awae. den i damn scared u angry wib mie..in e end jux jk oni lor. humph. budden..thx for tryin tu cheer mie up. (;
u tuu. u unintentionally cheered mie up. thx. (;
mai smile oni las for tt few moments. nd den it leaves mie. untill it feels lyk cumin..
hus nxt? no one shld be able tu understand dis. its got lots of meanin..
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wads mai reason for livin..? i duno. i rili duno..den y dun i jux end it all? cuz i dun hab e courage tu take up e knife tu slice mai wrist. if i die. i tink more peeps will be hapi den sad. dey may seem tt dey lyk mie. bud deep inside its a whole lot of wishin mie tu die. i noe it. i cn feel it de. sincere. ya. im sincere. bud wad i do unto others. others din do unto mie. i duno y. i treat dem e wae tt i hope tt dey treat mie. or m i tuu bossy or sumtyn nd i nb realise? i tink maybe its mai fault..it was mai fault las tym. dis tym..peeps assured mie tt its nt mai prob. bud..i dun feel gd. maybe i jux sark. it shld be mai fault. almost eberione ish tinkin im a thorn in deir flesh. i feel sho..lousy. maybe i shld drink poison den slice mai wrist nd den mai neck. den i jump dwn buildin. it wld be a hapi endin...wldnt it?
todae..i had mai mood swing. jie sae tt i lyk tt beri scary. maybe. i duno. budden i jux feel..depressed..i felt dissapointed..bud i duno y. i hapi. at most oni a moment. den tt laughter dissappears. aniw. x-true love saed hi. i din noe he wil do tt de lor. i tot he wld find mie nerd.
i simply hate maiself. i suggest u peeps hate mie tuu. go search deep intu ur heart nd u wld find tt its e zone labelled 'you ming sarks' zone.haiz...im sick. bud nt lovesick..or pervertically sick..its jux..unwell..
well. todae at e carnival mai flowers r sold at $0.50!! omg. e guys sho tupid. its suppose tu be 1.20. dey SARK. nd den oni e las flower was sold for 1.20. aniw. if u wan flower arh. ask mie make lor. budden muz pay 1.20. tell mie e color etc. den i help u do. got sumone bought 3!!! omg. wadeva. aniw. mie nd lp chen ji tok tu shuai ge. tell dem donate. im lame. i noe. i sark..
y muz boys alwaes be boys? cnt dey bcum more matured nd sensitive? cn dey dun be sho insensitive nd inconsiderate? maybe nt all boys r lyk tt..bud. mostly. ya.
ill try nd find tt courage deep in mai heart..tu do sumtyn u peeps will love. die.
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omg. im sho dead. i nid lots of stuff. e pp de ezlink cards. den i nid deir particulars. damn it. argh..
im sho busy todae. arrangement of goin bck skol. den still got sum other stuff..
i rili wish ill jux dissappear frm dis world..4eva.
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haiz..i had forgotten e feelin of bein in love. nw i cn onli kao one song tu help mie rmb tt period when i was lovesick. wich ish ai xiao de yan jing. by vivian. i sing along wib tt song until mai voice bcum sho sha ya. nw im listenin tu heaven knows by rick price....
tml got 2 test leh..sci nd geog. aniw. im nt botherin tu revise..idk y..budden jux lyk tt..
heard frm jie hui tt e competition mayb on 1st feb!! omg omg omg. aniw. bbal match won both!!yippees! todae or izit ytd? mr pinky ask all e sports peeps tu stand. den beri funi lor. tot wad rong did we do. den sae we had train siaoly for e holis. den competition cumin. den applause! lols.
tml im gona ask sumone for his no!! cuz i haben find. den i go up strght nd ask le la. dun care face le. or maybe i ask another de..
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i rili dun blief worx..i chio meh? i sho nt chio cn. rili wad. he lks lyk kum hung. nd i sho dun lyk him. i go for older guys okie. at most younger by 1 mth? ya. den nw. i dun lyk anione. RILI. i cn swear. im free. budden im sick of bein free...
aniw. todae..fwenly match wib sports skol. dey pro lor. i won one 3:1. den e other one lost 3:0. she sho pro. nw mai aim ish still tu beat rb. den..i wanted tu play wib tt..shaun? den in e end no tym. he cute lor. den he nd e other guy alwaes shout shuai! den mie yun jen nd mindy oso shout shuai! lols. u duno wad happened. nbm. one dae u ask mie i do for u tu hear. maybe u wun laugh. bud I DUN CARE. (;
im swearin tt i dun lyk pink. eewww. i noe sum peeps lyk. aniw. wadeva.
after tt we play throw wallet!! den xiao zhu wallet got one hole...lols. got money drop out worx...budden i nice wad. u go put inside again. (;
nxt wk competition le..sho early...)x
oh ya. jovian! *waves*. sho sori. i din noe u were wavin tu mie. i din ebn c u. den ah ma zhu tell mie. sho sori worx..k le..i go le..(;
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todae mah..i cleared tyns wib her. she was sayin sori. budden i din wana forgive her at all. its cuz of jie den i forgave her. duno y i still cn tt buay song face of hers sumtyns. cuz i cldnt be mai imagination. at first i rili tot of goin tu join other grp..leavin dem. cuz i noe tt she was tokin bout hw innocent she ish..wadeva. no matter wad. she tinks tt e lks of guys ish much more important den our promise of 4eva fwenship.
watchin xiao yuan superstar..wow.
i rili feel lyk killin mai bro i tell u. dun bother tu eleborate.
i feel lyk killin maiself. slicin mai wrist nd jux die off. no one cares if im still on dis world.
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cn life get animore borin? iv lost a precious feelin den nw wad ish happenin ish tt its sho BORING. nth btr tu do. im bored..damn bored. todae play bbal wib jiayuan da zhu xiao zhu nd ah ma zhu. den i go tt/pp. den i play wib tt..ying ze? den rb lost tu e vic guy..sho nw mai target ish tu beat rb? duno. dun care. wadeva.
i go slp le..nitez eberione...
cherish eberi sec u love sumone deeply nd truely..
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i wana hab e feelin of true lurbe again..ya. im free. i feel sho light..bud nw wad ish happenin ish tt i miss e feelin of bein able tu love sumone tt deeply. tt truely. i rili wana find mai sec true love..nd tell him? sho tt i dun hab tu wait for another 2 1/2 yrs...
nd i noe sum peeps r findin mie a nuisience. nd ill list e possiblities..
- act cute
- act lian
- act chio
- act humble
- ap
- alwaes tell e cold hard truth
- tink tt im top of e world
- blame all others apart frm maiself
- proud
- lame
i cnt tink of anityn else...nw ill xplain..act cute,lian,chio ish wad i WAS. take note of e tense. WAS. den humble. i dun act humble. i wan i jux sae de. ap. if i hab dere will be rumors tt cn reach mai ears. alwaes tell e cold hard truth. i sho dun lor. its jux tt if u close tu mie. den i will tell u all. if u r jux a piece of rubbish tt doesnt concern mie. i dun ebn bother tu tok tu u. tink tt im top of e world. for goodness sake. duno mie den dun sae anityn la. blame all others apart frm maiself. if lyk tt ill rather sumone kill mie. den rite in mai wishlist tt i wish e murderer wun go jail nor die cuz he killed mie. i wun be sayin anityn lyk sori or wadeva lyk tt. proud. if i proud den i crazy le lor. wad cn i be proud of. for bein invisible? for bein beri black? for bein e x-chairman? for mai lks? for mai studies? nth i cn be proud of lor. den lame. ya. i noe i beri lame. i jux duno y peeps lyk andrea nd ginny cn be sho crappie tt peeps lyk laugh. or maybe dey nt crappie. jux tt dey..duno do wad la. no matter wad. dey r funi. actually if u lk at peeps wib diff kind of view. u cn ebn lyk..de hao? try nd put urself in deir shoes bah. budden i dun tink anione wld be tt kind as tu put demselves in mai shoes. dey dun bother tu.
if u got animore suggestions. u cn tag den tell mie. ill xplain. or maybe if i cnt xplain. ill try nd change bah. k. nth le.
thx ma! for alwaes bein dere for mie. nu' er here lurbe u lots.
where r mai true fwens? duno..dey hab dissappeared intu thin air..
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play bbal..beri beri tired...bck hurts..feet hurts..arm hurts..OMG JOVIAN DEY ALL SHO PRO! budden ying xian sae connie her nd jia yuan more xiong. jux tt dey lax tudae. i wana c one tym when dey xiong!! c hw pro dey r. susuna surely beri xiong de.
tt tupid fattie damn smelly. he stinks. literally.
literature hw? mie nd sylvia doin 3 little pigs. cuz we zhu zhus..lols.
todae..nth...
mood swing. iv been habin mood swing for 1 yr. or izzit rili mood swing? i duno. den u gib mie attitude cuz u mood swing. den when i hab mood swing..no one cares..
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nth much happen..as usual..
ill leave if u peeps dun lyk mie. dun lyk dun lyk lor. if u rili wan mie out. tell mie. ill find mai wae out. dun gib mie attitude. y does eberione jux ignore mie? cn sumone jux tell mie wads rong?
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iv been made e art rep..duno i suppose tu do. duno. dun care. orh..mai bck hurts.
mornin apex. e dance beri short. den wadeva we ans ish sumtyn tt dey dun wan. den dey kip continuin. im tinkin of wad ish our apex....
pe...soccer! budden i duno hw tu play. andrea e pro nia! den boys another team wad. den she damn bored..i wana play bbal...haiz...
eng..as borin as eva..
recess den ish maths. hmm..chee ish rite. after startin u wana chiong e whole tyn. I LURBE MATHS! (; i jux dun lyk careless mistake. ):
sci. i pay attention leh! dun care la..den art. BORIN.
dun complain complain complain..u r nt e da xiao jie ard k. we r sorta equal. dun dey tink u r da xiao jie. bai jia zi. u buay song den go awae la. BYTCH.
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rili? i m? maybe i m innocent. (;
he sho innocent cn! lols. his innocence cn make mie laugh. nd he ish sho damn shuai nd adorable! his nt hot nor sexy(proposed by another guy). nd im sure tt 'another guy' ish GAY! lols.
las nite had another crazy conver. budden i cld catch up la. y r fwens..sho..sickenin..
JUS STP ACTIN IN FRONT OF MIE U DAMN IDOT! U R MAKIN MIE SICK.
i jux wan understandin..she saed i got ren yuan. i got all dis for changin maiself. nw i tink of it. i oni got fwens after i chaged. r dey worth it..?
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omgomgomgomgogmogomgomg. im sho sori tt i misunderstood. paiseh.
todae...i skip 400 tyms lyk tt. skip 100 tyms each apart frm once. skippin ish nice. go try it. its a nice wae of jian-in fei. budden i cnt skip at hm. cuz no space. one fine dae tidy up. den got space.
tml got ping pong. i muz train seriously. nd i do mean tt. i dun wana slack le. im goin all nerd le. maybe nt all. most bah. duno.
todae mai ma nb cum tu skol. i was lyk..sho worried cn! i tot she rili wana go awae..den we(e 3 of us) cor her. she high fever. she sae she cumin bck skol tml. yeah! jie ish rite. e klas ish sho much quieter wibout her...
dun lyk mie tell mie lor. dun gib mie attitude den sae u still lyk mie. dun crap ard. its nt fun. nd sho wad if i tag along? sho wad if i dun? todae..u ppl still dissapoint mie. i rili nid sumone hu understands mie..sum one..willin tu listen tu mie..sumone..plsh...
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aiyo. i wonder if i cn beat tt vic guy nots..haiz..tt anti guy nt bad oso. budden nb play wib him. aniw. nw i more serious in ping pong le. i muz jia you!
tt tupid bad guy ish sho irritatin. hit mai head sum more. nd i swear his stead eyes ta stamp. y stead wib such a ungentleman guy. i pity his stead..
xin yu gettin btr dae by dae. wich ish gd! i hope she wana cum nas...xin yu still shy shy in frnt of jiao lian. den i help her. she sho cute!! lols. xin yu muz jia you oso. (;
hu got derrick frm 4r6 no? ml got kenneth de le..yi jie suppose tu get leonard de. den lp get ding wei de..hu will lose? duno...
im nb understood...
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sori...i shldnt hab scolded u tt..misunderstood. pai seh. budden u oso duno i got blog. oso nb cum nd c. no matter wad i sae u oso duno...lols. aniw. i tink maybe i fallin for u? duno. dun care. shuen qi zi ran...
told mai bro lots lots lots of stuff todae. frm todae onwards i muz SAVE. anione wana donate?i dun mind u noe.. lols.
bei finish bu xiang zhang da le. nd got yue du test on TUES. den still nid hand in e decorated green ring file nd e scrap bk. haiz...I HATE HW.
im still beri dissapointed... )<
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U BASTARD. DUN WANA FIND MIE DEN DUN FIND LOR. DUN SAE U WANA FIND MIE DEN IN E END STILL NB. BASTARD.
k. i chill le. oh ya. stranger..thx for bein on mai side. todae play wib ang mo kio sec. quite easy tu play wib. bud i nb play wib e strongest. (= nd im deprovin lyk SHIT. i muz jia you le..argh...troubled by all e fwen fwen tingy..haiz...
lk above. it saes - nb eva lie tu mie. nd sho mani peeps did. im tellin u im nt a tool for anione tu vent deir anger on. i HAB FEELINS TUU. u peeps dun buay song den find mie den sae sumtyn bout mie. i oso got buay song tyms. bud i dun dare tu do anityn..cuz iv been hurt deeply..mai heart for fwens ish hollow.its jux gettin hollower nd hollower. nd nw its sort of a depthless hole. hurt mie more. nd i will hab no more heart. iv oni left e crust..
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OH YA! i grow taller by 4 cm. nd i oni weigh heavier by 0.5 kg...YEAH!!
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k lk. i swear tt i dun lyk tt hu eva. i swear. if i lie..ill be strike by lightnin. bang dwn by car. eat food choke. okie? nd stranger..i rili rili rili changed. i dun act cute. i dun bother tu. i dun wish tu. nd i dun wan tu. im lame nd i noe it. im nt lyk angry wib u or wad..jux tt..u sure u r still one of dose tt r close tu mie or one of dose tt e news lag lyk shit one? maybe u go check ard again bahs..k?
promised sumtyn tt u cnt acomplish. sho wads e use of promisin man. u will jux dissapoint mie more. nw i rili feel lyk slicin mai wrist wib a tupid chopper. fwens lied. parents dun understand. studies bad. no one understands..or bother tu understand..iv been listenin. iv been hearin u all tok for a long long tym. i waited. nd im still waitin. i rili break dwn le...bud i dun wana cry at hm..i jux wana cry at a corner..where no ones dere...
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haiz..y does ppl oni c e obvious. y dun dey lk intu peeps hearts nd guess wad dey r doin. peeps lk on e outside. sho ppl cn act out deir feelins den peeps will pity. hw sad..dere ish dis kind of peeps in e world.
lk intu peeps heart. dun lk on e obvious. tt sux. rili. it sux. nd stp actin.
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if u duno table tennis. i suggest u skip e 1st para...rili. OMG HE SHO TAIKO! i duno hw he prac his taikorism one...got 10 ball 8 ball ish taiko. hw cum? i duno. nd mai la improve le! budden mai cuo deprove. den mai zheng shou improve wib mai la. mai fan shou okie okie as usual.
oh ya. i saw rong bin(bing?) at tsh oso. he trainin wib e national team jiao lian. den ltr got play wib tt guy. as in rong bin(g). duno win or lose. cuz he play wib hua mian beri beri gd one. den tt vic guy oso beri pro. den i ask him on msn. until nw still haben reply.
noe wad? xiao zhu cor mie. den i tink eberione tink she mai bf leh! lols. den she tell mie she was oso misunderstood tu be da zhu bf! lols.
sum tyns. wibout xperiencin it urself. u nb noe. i gona break dwn..
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im sure tt i dun lyk tt guy le! yea! tt was one dae love. wich sux. cuz its nt true love. yea!im free again. k. i was dreamin of lots of kute guyz las nite! lols. got nth btr tu sae...eh got leh...
maybe u peeps din realise it. bud im feelin tt wae wich ish nt a gd tyn. or maybe ish e wae u r treatin mie ish lyk tt budden u dun realise it. i ask lp le. she sae nb. we list out e possiblities. i suspect one person tt cld be stranger bud i dun wana sae out e name. maybe sumtyms when i hang out wib u peeps if i wana be quiet. let mie be. i saed it b4. jux wana repeat.
i rili wana cry out loud. nd sae. y ish e world lyk tt...jumpin off e buildin ish a gd idea..
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first. ya. i noe tt ppl r startin tu dislyk mie. or more correctly. hate mie. cuz iv been an idiot. nd i noe it. i changed b4. for fwens sake. sum ppl dun hab tu change nd gain eberione's trust. i dun get it. i dun get it at all. i dun wish tu change animore. i noe iv been beri lame. as in lame until cnt lame animore. its cuz i got nth tu sae. den i stay quiet. den u ppl find mie quiet. start tu ask mie tu speak. nd im was in totally no mood tu speak. sho when i stay quiet. allow mie tu continue. i dun wana be hated. for bein lame. im a sarker at jks. get it?
dose ppl noe. i lyked sumone b4. den it was ova. i dun trust love animore. i dun ebn tink dere ish love in dis world animore. den dere cum another guy. rejected him twice. den i read destiny's cries nd harry potter(e ginny part). den i wanted tu go bck for him. den his feelins for mie were fadin. den i was lyk. nbm. den dere cum mai lameness. i wanted tu cover up. u ppl nb noe. no one understands mie. rili understands mie...nw i blief in love. bud it hurts. its jux...hurtful. nth seems tu work tu heal maiself. if u ppl try tu cheer mie up. yes. i will laugh. i will smile. bud its for tt moment. nd tt moment oni. i rili duno wad will heal mie..i seriously duno..
im oso started tu dislyk e peeps ard mie. sumtyns dey will discover mie. den ask y i sho quiet. of cuz i saed nth..nd dey jux left mie lyk tt. wich ish gd. cuz i dun rili wana confide in dem. dey will forget mie. jux left mie alone. nbm. u peeps duno e situation im in. u peeps oni noe mai skin. bud u peeps tot u noe mie tu e bone. sho far no one has reached mai bone. no one. i jux cnt find tt true fwen. or maybe boyfwen. nd mai fam ish a no no.
i found e nid tu cry..cry out loud. lyk wad i did las yr. cry lyk shit. cry lyk dere ish no tml. i almost did jux nw. bud i was at hm. sho i cldnt do it. ill jux find a dae where by. im all alone in e klasrm..nd cry. i hope no more peeps will cum up suddenly. no more...
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